Disconsolate

Held, seized and torn

by your venomous fangs.

Confined in this cage,

Can’t circumvent

restrained and

repressed emotions

once ardent

now frigid

Induced guilt

Of cipher

Abridgement of,

Thralldom and Subjugation

Dispassionate living

Yet building castles in air

LETS MAKE UP

I am your mirror, you are mine

Never thought of the times things wouldn’t be fine

Whiff of your sadness is like a blade by my side

A move made, and with finesse it will slide.

I love you

And that’s not a lie.

Sadness in eyes

Efforts in words

Forged actions

You can’t hide

so can’t I

So let’s make it simple

Just you and me

as one

Can mesh things in place

Cuz I am unfinished

Without you

And would remain

Hoping alike is your case

we are akin

taken aback ,

yet over whelming i stand

wondering at

the chemical romance of nature

we collided

ur eyes reverberate my frame

i echo u when i whisper

footsteps strolling the same aisle

similar songs playing on our broken records

you move before i decide

i act before you even think

a rhapsodic melody within

picturing a bliss

a sense of euphoria all around

life seems inaugrated

looking through the horizon

realizing its an inception

but wanting to live a fools paradise of no edge.

me...not me

Racing against time,

trying to be ,

what i am not,

who i never wanted to be.

Hideous acts

and a sinful heart.

a face in a crowd,

trying to hide.

getting pleasure in pain,

cant refrain .

carrying a guilt

playing this role to the hilt

abstinence is the need of hour

time to go back in bower.

feeling impotent,

do not need a vent,

life's curved and bent,

now i know what you meant.

cant sail to horizon....

I am the only sailor

in the sea so wide

finding my boulevard

horizon's big as life

farther you are nearer it seems

keep moving closer ,

distance is eternal .

sun rises and sets

and then darkness breaks

into daylight again.

Conquering the pirates of sea

fighting the hail and storm,

am moving ahead ,

to destination unknown.

weary same old shore

is at one end ,

and the extraordinarily tempting

horizon at the other,

one’s an illusion

another substance.

mind desires shore

heart craves for horizon.

Still sailing midway

, one night

when it was pitch dark

no moon , starless sky

a sudden blizzard

ship couldn’t withstand

outrage of nature

it withered and sank.

Its no phoenix

That will emerge from the ashes (pieces)

No miracle

Sunk Ship , wouldn’t rise again.

No reincarnation..

It’s the end the final end.

Disillusionment is necessary

Or else your ship wont sail.

Faux Pas

Wanted to cling to your arms

a place so tender , i imagined

never knew will have to deal with wrath

did not know it will wreak pain.

conjuring imminence but

sultriness in abundance .

madcap i was

loved you with verve.

with bizarre ideas in head

i let myself be me

gave away to you

anticipating regalement

impassive you were

instigating and vexing i was

so was your reluctance and averseness

towards me

infidelity deep embedded in you

you renounce love and disowned me

wheedling dint work nor did cajoling, on you.

you obstinate pig headed creature

i took a crack at you

but in vain..

it was a blind alley

i played my heart at...

breathe into me or i might die

walking on this aisle
my harbor so visible
with each step i move closer
he moves a mile farther
i see an entanglement he's trapped himself in
flustered yet faking confidence
at bay, still feeling free.
procreated fences all around
no channel, to get to his core
interlaced but talking to me
calling me near
asking me to hold on
but i cant find a stand
unreal is what he is living in.
i told him this may let you survive
but living, is different
bone of contention
bickering and brawling
fixed and headstrong he is
fragile and vitreous i am.
this facet sustained,
and then came
a phase of speechlessness
which prolonged too
...then silence broke
both said breathe into me
or i might die.....................

eternal rest was a fear
but separation was even more
terrorizing & shuddering .

smile

Oh my god its so beautiful wen he smiles
spell bound by his gaze, my eyes wait.

for a little curve on his lips,
the naughty wink which precedes it,
is like cherry on top of a cake.

those fraction of seconds
seem like a moment
can see his eye lashes brushing up and down,
curve on his lips widening to both ends.
gleaming eyes, a lit up face
is such a dish for ones eyes.

its as pleasant as watching a sunrise
it makes one feel as fresh as morning dew
and that mole on upper lip is so tempting
makes one wanna eat him up..

one smile, a tint in his eyes
is enough to make your day.